Friday, February 12, 2010

loss is is friendship

this world gives us so many challenges... the highest of highs and sometimes the lowest of lows. my heart goes out to a good friend, steve from
he has just lost his father and I know our thoughts and prayers are with him.

so rather than the usual banter... I just want to take a minute to say, that relationships are the most meaningful of our experiences here on earth. Every effort we make, professional or personally is in an effort to create better connections with those around us. Whether the relationship is with ourselves or with other valued individuals, we grow as we develop these synergies. Whether you believe in an afterlife or not, you can take value from this gentle reminder of how short our life here is, and how important every moment can become. So a little thank you to you all for putting up with me on this journey, whether you say some thing or nothing, all the little 'nothings' I experience from you has made this journey all the richer.

My heart goes out to Steve and anyone else experiencing a loss. Thanks for being part of my life's tapestry.

Monday, February 8, 2010

valentine dilema

So, I want to give my sweetie a valentines he'll really like, but the man is impossible to shop for!! So I hoped you all would give ma a little advice:

I wanted to do a gift combo that hits all the "love laguages":
1. Touch
2. Personal Time
3. Service
4. Words of Affirmation and
5. Gifts

any suggestions? What would you like from your sweetie.. a gift certificate for dinner for 2? or a massage, maybe a good book?

Friday, February 5, 2010

problems with internet and spouses

errr... I hate the Internet here!!! Don't get me wrong,I adore the new house, but the Internet stinks... it is constantly down. I have just recently spoken to them about a new modem... hopefully it will help.

What can I say, when you haven't blogged for a while it's easy to think "I'll just quit, no one reads this stuff anyway, what's the point?" So despite my lazy inner dialogue, I am here - trying to stay on this path that HAS gotten me this far.

Have you ever put yourself down around someone, simply to confirm weather or not it's true? Let me illustrate, I recently made a negative comment about myself around my hubby, something I fear might true, in the hopes that he would jump to my defense, and categorically deny that I share this trait...

...he didn't.

Why do we do this to ourselves, now I'm convinced that this is true, that I am doomed and that my sweet hubby has lost some of that spark, that respect, or 'heaven forbid' his love for me. Why do we do this to ourselves? It is entirely possible that he is just unobservant and didn't catch the comment (or he was tuning me out-also possible) and yet I find myself pre-occupied with this moment. Why do we care what others think? And why do we use others to confirm whether or not we have succeeded or failed?