errr... I hate the Internet here!!! Don't get me wrong,I adore the new house, but the Internet stinks... it is constantly down. I have just recently spoken to them about a new modem... hopefully it will help.
What can I say, when you haven't blogged for a while it's easy to think "I'll just quit, no one reads this stuff anyway, what's the point?" So despite my lazy inner dialogue, I am here - trying to stay on this path that HAS gotten me this far.
Have you ever put yourself down around someone, simply to confirm weather or not it's true? Let me illustrate, I recently made a negative comment about myself around my hubby, something I fear might true, in the hopes that he would jump to my defense, and categorically deny that I share this trait...
Why do we do this to ourselves, now I'm convinced that this is true, that I am doomed and that my sweet hubby has lost some of that spark, that respect, or 'heaven forbid' his love for me. Why do we do this to ourselves? It is entirely possible that he is just unobservant and didn't catch the comment (or he was tuning me out-also possible) and yet I find myself pre-occupied with this moment. Why do we care what others think? And why do we use others to confirm whether or not we have succeeded or failed?